It really sucks to be a perfectionist, especially when you never do anything perfect. I even find myself not trying things because I know I can't to it to my own standards. I find myself wanting to try something cool I have seen, but never attempt it because I know that someone else will do a better job. It doesn't help that I can't make a decision to save my life. I am always second guessing, and changing my mind. All of these qwerks of mine came to the surface, and exploded a couple of weeks ago.
I had just taken my family pictures and thought "I need to get the Christmas card done and over with, before everything gets too crazy." The annual Christmas card is very important to me. Every year I want it to be perfect. Yeah, I know that people really don't care if it is perfect. They just like getting the card. But, that does not matter because I want it perfect. I have actually been studying Christmas card for months, wishing, and hoping ours would turn out just as good.
I began by searching the computer for the just right files to put together the best Christmas card ever. I worked for hours, taking tutorials online, repositioning, picking colors, choosing pictures, and making everything "Just Perfect." I was ready to look at what these babies were going to cost. I love to print on metallic paper, so I was going to order the cards from my favorite printer. $1 a piece was too much for me (yes I am a cheap, indecisive, perfectionist.) I found out that Costco is the best deal $14.99 for 50 cards with envelopes, but my cards were not formatted to the 6x7.5 dimensions. Time to start over! I got everything just right again. But, then I hated everything about the card. The colors, pictures, everything you name it. I felt like I had waisted an entire day on an ugly Christmas card. I should have just used one the the Costco templates, they were a lot cuter. I am one crazy lady!
So I thought if I just send in the order maybe I would just stop thinking about it. It would be over, done, beyond the point of no return. No the obsessing just intensified. I knew for sure I had made the wrong decision. I kept repeating to myself the advice my step dad gave to me years ago. (Yes, this is not the first time I've been loco like this.) "Make a decision, then make it the right decision."
In conclusion:
I had just taken my family pictures and thought "I need to get the Christmas card done and over with, before everything gets too crazy." The annual Christmas card is very important to me. Every year I want it to be perfect. Yeah, I know that people really don't care if it is perfect. They just like getting the card. But, that does not matter because I want it perfect. I have actually been studying Christmas card for months, wishing, and hoping ours would turn out just as good.
I began by searching the computer for the just right files to put together the best Christmas card ever. I worked for hours, taking tutorials online, repositioning, picking colors, choosing pictures, and making everything "Just Perfect." I was ready to look at what these babies were going to cost. I love to print on metallic paper, so I was going to order the cards from my favorite printer. $1 a piece was too much for me (yes I am a cheap, indecisive, perfectionist.) I found out that Costco is the best deal $14.99 for 50 cards with envelopes, but my cards were not formatted to the 6x7.5 dimensions. Time to start over! I got everything just right again. But, then I hated everything about the card. The colors, pictures, everything you name it. I felt like I had waisted an entire day on an ugly Christmas card. I should have just used one the the Costco templates, they were a lot cuter. I am one crazy lady!
So I thought if I just send in the order maybe I would just stop thinking about it. It would be over, done, beyond the point of no return. No the obsessing just intensified. I knew for sure I had made the wrong decision. I kept repeating to myself the advice my step dad gave to me years ago. (Yes, this is not the first time I've been loco like this.) "Make a decision, then make it the right decision."
In conclusion:
- The card isn't bad (I just don't like it.)
- It didn't cost much (although you can get them cheaper now, yes a $5 coupon came in the mail today-I should have procrastinated.)
- I am going to be positive and make it the right decision (I'm still a nut job.)
- This post is way too long.
Merry Early Christmas
Well from one cheap, indecisive, perfectionist to another - at least you're a FABULOUS nut job ;)
ReplyDeletelol! I know exactly what you mean. I dropped so many things in life because I wasn't the absolute best, and only being the absolute best would work for me. I love the Christmas card. It looks great. But I understand being unhappy with something like that. Every time I look at my Christmas card from last year I think, "What was I thinking?" I've been trying to plan out a better one for this year ever since.
ReplyDeleteI tell you it's cute! I love it. Of course you already know I don't care what bug neclace Reese gets!!
ReplyDeleteI think it is the cutest thing ever. And I say it is perfect. I mean who decides what perfect is anyways. This year let it be my turn... "I declare this Christmas card perfect!"
ReplyDeleteHow beautiful! I love the colors, the photos, the fonts... It is really beautiful. Perfect! I second Maridee :) and BTW, having something already done is worth five bucks in my opinion!
ReplyDeleteLOVE it Natalie. I think it is indeed perfect. I don't know anything I would change at all! you have awesome looking kids.
ReplyDeleteWow! Cute as ever. Perfect? Personally I love those things that are not. Like my weird, wacky, cheap, sister who is just prefect (in a weird wacky way)!
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